My exercise holiday

For many years now I have been exercising every day almost. Have tried many things,for the first few years it was hitting the gym,and only the guilt of having paid so much for the membership kept me going. After four years of doing the same thing with hardly any results (I continued to be the same weight as before though I was always healthy) I decided it wasn't for me. Then I took up yoga and continued for five years of almost regular attendance . I like the slow pace and the calming effect and the fact that it is done first thing in the morning and kind of sets the agenda for the day. Swimming I took up to prove to myself that an old dog can be taught new tricks. I am a slow swimmer but can swim for an hour and be very happy. I have been swimming for three years. This month a nasty cold caught hold of me and put paid to any exercise so I decided to take an exercise holiday especially after blood tests proved that I was in the pink of health. I feel guilty about doing nothing (though I enjoy my laziness). Someone told me that a habit takes only twenty one days to form and as they say habits are supposed to die hard. Well I have been doing all manner of exercise in the last six years but it's always been a big ask to get me going. The fact that mostly guilt guids me is one thing,it's just that despite all of this I can't make exercise a habit. Dedication is not my thing at all and as for commitment well it's skipped me by totally. I know I eat too much but I do cook rather well and I know I must exercise but I just can't. My friends are all dedicated exercise people and nothing seems to bother me. Unfortunately I can't seem to get away from it. The icing on the cake was when a neighbour who normally never talks to me...actually asked me why I haven't been going for yoga. Now am I so fat that even the neighbourhood is concerned? .i promise myself everyday that today is the day and that day is still coming. My mother who normally frowns at my swimming obsession has asked me why I haven t been swimming. It look like the whole world is conspiring against me so well....maybe I should do something g about it. My exercise holiday just isn't so blissful after all